Wednesday, 23 May 2012

Why it's so damn boring to wait?

"Desire is root cause of all evil," or so you're told. Well, whoever that mighty intelligent fellow was, my kudos to him, but at the end of my day, I prefer to say “Boredom is the root cause of all evil." Why the hell, it's so damn boring to wait for something and why do we wait? 

Boredom is related to waiting, I think, most of you would agree to that. Why do we wait? We wait because we want or need something. Boredom and waiting might be two sides of the same coin, which is all evil; or boredom and waiting might be synonyms. I don't know exactly what is true.

Boredom is mind. Don't get puzzled, dumbfounded and obfuscated in the fog of fancy words! Mind is nothing but thoughts. If you go on a hunt to search mind, you would fail. You would not be able to find it, because such is the nature of mind; more slippery than sand and deceiving trickster at its best. Thoughts, when they're normal, suggest that your mind is calm. An agitated mind has storm of rum pelt stilt skin thoughts from hither and yon. Boredom is the perception that you're not content with the present situation. You want 'more' or 'better' or 'more and better'. Boredom is incessant stream of impulsive and vehement crusaders of thoughts, which rush into your conscious and shout at you "This is not good, run away from here!"

Waiting for something might not necessarily be out of boredom, it might also be a liability or an obligation at times. That's why, up-thread, I didn't indulge into saying that boredom is waiting. No, I didn't. You're right. Waiting, when it's pure waiting, might be a spiritual transcendental practice, as Eckhart Tolle says in his book Power Of Now. But the waiting with which most of us are familiar is not so. It's uncomforting. It states loudly "I am in transition." Though whole life story of ours is a fleeting affair from cosmic viewpoint, waiting is very transition of transition called 'life story.'

Waiting is commotion, disharmony, and the time which is spent in waiting, becomes 'mind'. Yes, time is mind and mind is time, as Jiddu Krishnamurthy used to explain so elaborately in his lectures. To distance you from present moment is to let thoughts pour in plenty. That is what makes even a small situation a monster and a sucker. You are powerful enough to face anything, virtually anything at all, but just put masalas of time into a little chemical equation and it will turn out to be your nemesis ultimatum.

Waiting allows a lot of time to kill and it's the time when you're tested. You're not really tested when solving most engrossing problems related to your job, family or life in general. No, you aren't. It's waiting, the highest order of test. Time just flies when your mind is absorbed by an object of attention, but when you're waiting, it gets piled up with random thoughts.

Why do random thoughts, in absence of a creative process, make people tend to think negative? It happens. I am not spitting fudge out here. Just observe and you will come to know it. In my most humble opinion, it happens because more you think, less life-force energy you're left with. Lower levels of life force energy mean lesser awareness, which tends to make you feel more frustrated.

Waiting is evil, so is boredom. It just means that your thoughts are driving you hard. It's not as important to part with your present disposition, as it's to part with those maddening thoughts.  

The answers to waiting and boredom are acceptance and action.

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